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Why Motherhood Can Feel So Disorienting — Even When You Wanted It
A wanted baby and a difficult transition are not contradictions. Matrescence describes the internal process of becoming a mother: not only learning to care for a baby, but adapting to changes in identity, relationships, autonomy, attention and the body. In this audio essay, I explore why motherhood may feel disorientating even when your baby was deeply wanted—and why missing parts of your former life does not mean that you regret the life you now have.…
What Matrescence Actually Feels Like — And Why Nobody Warned You
There is a word for what you are going through. Not the sleepless nights. Not the feeding. Not the endless logistics of caring for a new baby. The quieter thing. The feeling that something fundamental has shifted, and that you cannot quite put your finger on what. The sense that the person you were before is still here, but somehow altered. The moments of wondering why nobody told you it would feel like this. There…
The Split Ends We Stop Noticing
This morning I picked up a pair of scissors and cut my own hair. Not a style change. Not a decision I had planned. Just the quiet recognition — long overdue — that the split ends had been there long enough to start affecting everything else. Breakage. Tangles. A kind of unmanageability that had crept in so gradually I had stopped seeing it for what it was. Once I started cutting, the relief was immediate.…
When Anxiety Won’t Listen to Reason — How to Find Your Way Back to Calm
Anxiety has very little interest in being reasoned with. You may already know this. You have tried telling yourself everything is fine. You have listed the evidence. You have talked yourself through it logically, more times than you can count. And still the feeling remains — that low hum of unease, or the sudden wave of it, arriving without permission and refusing to leave on command. This is not a failure of intelligence or willpower.…
How to Find a Doula in London (and Know You’ve Chosen Well)
Finding a doula can feel overwhelming — especially when you want to choose someone who truly fits. This guide will help you navigate what to look for, what to ask, and how to recognise the right support for you.
What Does Postnatal Support Really Look Like — and Do You Need It?
Postpartum support is often spoken about in practical terms — but what does it actually look and feel like in the early days? This piece explores the quieter realities of the postnatal period, and how the right support can shape your experience more than you might expect.